You may have noticed I haven’t posted in a little over a week. Yikes! In and of itself, not a big deal. The reasons: they’re good. Grand Canyon Trip with Mom & Uncle. Amtrak trip along the Golden State for Uncle’s 60th Surprise Birthday (more on that in another post). Settling back into the routine at home. Honestly, I feel like I have blog back-up; I have at least 4 posts “in the works” on my to-do list. So many things experienced, so many things to write about, and always — not enough time!
Here I am on Monday afternoon, in desperate need of a shower after an awesome gym workout (yup visiting the gym now), nearing the lunchtime hunger hour, and although seeing that I have now crossed five items off my to-do list, there is still much to be done, and if I’m realistic I won’t get to all of it, and if I’m honest, it’s not all “what she loves”. Isn’t that life, though?
Three of the items thus far completed were battling over monthly service fees with the bank; informing a cell phone company that although they have emailed me my account pin, my new phone number, and lots of goodies about my new account — I have no relationship with them; and lastly, sending an email regarding an online order that the items I received, I did not order, and the items I did order, I did not receive. Monday!
So what’s on for the rest of the day? Well, being the beginning of a new week, always job sites to scour again, resumés to rework, cover letters to create, and applications to submit. After that, perhaps I can get to the fun, creative stuff that really fuels my tank. But here’s the thing — I am too greedy. I want to spend some time in Bible Study (our topic this round “Running Nowhere in Every Direction” — apropos — even for the unemployed), read some of my Book Club book, make a card, list some of my latest jewelry creations on Etsy, play with a new Telugu-learning software program, work more behind the scenes of my blog, and write, write, write. Am I crazy? I can’t even get to all the things I love even with no child and no job. I miss working, but I am seriously loving this transitional time, and while reading the works of William Bridges, am learning how to make the most of this transition, but when will I ever learn that my desires and ambitions far outstretch what can be peacefully accomplished in a day, or when will God give me those 36-hour days?
So, here I sit, with just a couple hours before needing to think about “what’s for dinner”, contemplating my list, and wondering what I will get to do today, and what will have to be for tomorrow. Even with “all the time in the world” on my hands, I’m wanting so badly to do all these projects which bring me so much contentment and peace, and feeling a little scattered and a little overwhelmed. Do you ever feel like this? What do you do about it?